January Diary Archive

Daily Entries Archived from January

january 2nd, 2002

...and a good new year to you too. I'm quite sick of that. Happy New Year? The whole concept of a new year just doesn't make sense to me. It's not like Dec. you have to get divorced, kill your kids, quit your job, find a new place to live, etc, etc. it's just another day, so why do things have to change. Why should you wish someone else good luck in the "new year". And how long is it new for? See, the whole thing is just mind boggling, and one could spend hondreds of "new" years writing a novel about it.

Anyway, I'm sure you don't care abou that at all. You want to know all the details about me in Arizona, because you are nosy perhaps? because I never talk to you about it? I don't know, i can't really understand the reason that this page just gets so many hits a day. That's weird. Makes me really wonder what I type that keeps people interested. Maybe I typed something once, that just knocked your socks off, and now you are waiting for me to do the same thing again. Anyhow, if five percent of the people who look at this page would sign my guestbook, I'd feel a lot better about it. I mean, I spend all this time writing entries, keeping you amused, and you can't even write in my guestbook or send me feedback about this site. Jeez, two words coe to mind here, ungrateful, and selfish. Yes, that's you. Only my cousin, and two brothers have sent me anything since I re-uploaded the feedback page. Sad Sad Sad

Alright, enough bitching. I'm in Tucson now. It's pretty weird really. I mean thinking about things and all. It so damned gorgeous around here. My mom told me the other day that she still feels like she's on vacation. Which could be the case. She's got in made down here.

Went and saw the Lord of the Rings tonight. The second one. Absolutely amazing. All that I want to do is say good things about that movie. I was physically tired after watching it. It took a lot out of me, and probably the most intense movie I've ever seen. I was incredible. I highly recommend it.

Got a new client for web design today. Here in Tucson that is. Pretty funny. Really funny. I was pretty excited about that, I love it when people who don't know anything about websites ask me for help. They always seem to listen well, and want to learn more about it. It' sthe best sort of client to have, is an unimformed one. Or something like that.

I've found a really cool place to live. Every single thing I would want this has. So I'm excited about that. As far as a job, I'm still deciding on what to do about that.

Ok, I just wanted to cover everything in this first entry. I know, there is a lot omre you want to know, and usually I just beat a topic to death rather than write about 50 different things, but I konw how you all are starving for reading material. Hopefully, things will slow down a little for me. Then I can tall you how messed up it is that my mom is dating a guy named "doug". I shudder thinking about it.

January 3rd, 2002

I am goddamn pissed off. I typed a beautiful entry last night, just absolutely fabulous. When I was nearly done, the power went out here, for a damned long time too. I was dead quite, and totally dark, the whole neighborhood. Man, that sucks...

I'm not even going to try and retype it. You'll just have to suffer like myself. That happened once before, when I was typing the high school page. I got so mad about it I just stopped writing that page, which is why it's only about 30 percent done, I don't know when I'm going to stop being pissed.

January 6th, 2002

I'm not going to stop being mad either. When I get to building my new computer, I'm going to implement a tape backup system, that will automatically backup my entire primary drive, then I'll add a UPS power supply, so then even if the power goes off, I'll still have time to save all of my necessary data. Go idea. I hate being screwed like that.

Obviously, for those that have been keeping track, I've finally done my "car accident" page, and I've had my first response to it. It appears that I am the one that should be the next victim? That's what I've gathered from the strange feedback that I've gotten. That's cool too. If I deserve to be that person, or I've done something wrong, it's not beneath me to put myself on that page, just give me good enough reason why. Seriously, I'm cool with it.

Maybe I should explain my rating system better. What I'm talking about is my relationship's page. I know this is going to cause some definite controversy. That's pretty much what I like to do though, cause controversy. It's my main goal with this site. All I want to do is make you feel some sort of emotion when you are reading this site, whether is be laughter, or sadness, or anger, or humiliation, whatever. This site exists for only those reasons. When the appeal of creating controversy ends, so will my desire to continue working on this site. So, my relationships... mostly, it's going to be just fun for my friends and other people that I don't know that read these pages. I just want to make people laugh at my unsuccessful attempts at relationships. Everyone I know always wants to know every little detail about all of my relationships. So I make it easy, and I put stuff on this page. I realize that this is a big time risk. And I know people that I used to date view this page on a weekly basis at least, I know that some girl I've dated, views this page once a week. I know that for a fact. I'm not saying that I have just one stalker girl that always keeps coming back. It's more like some girl who has been involved with me views this page every month or so. I'm not trying to act like women can't get over me, I know that they can. I'm just saying that if you've dated me, this isn't the first time you've been to this page.

That's the risk I take. So you can sort of tell who I'm worried about more than others by how limited I am talking about the personal details about everything. I don't know if I'll ever talk that much about Jamie, due to the fact that the less I talk to her, the more she scares the shit out of me. Now, Amy I wouldn't talk a whole lot about mostly because it affects other people besides Amy, and Nicole I would not say that much about because my mom is a big fan of her, and I respect her a lot. Jody I will not hesitate to say anything about. Do you see how that works? Ok then.

So my rating system will definitely offend people then. It's why I put that on there. Believe me, I don't think I'd ever be completely accurate about that... as when I was writing Nicole's page, I originally had her as number four, but then I moved her to number two simply because of how well we've gotten along, then I had to move Amy to number 3 because she was a very very good friend of mine, from before we became somewhat serious, until I was a total jerk to her a year after we stopped seeing each other. Each person is probably going to view the "placing system" differently. I assume that most people will think it's who I would most want to get back with. That's not entirely true. I think if there was one person I could get back with, I'd pick Jamie. What I think the place that each girl holds is how I rate our relationship. That makes more sense, and if you understand my thinking, you realize that it really isn't there to offend anyone. And that's not what I'm trying to do at all. So if you are a ladyfriend, then you know that if you are a second place girl, then we had the second most good times of all our relationships. I think I'll reflect this better on each girl's page.

So I go to make my proposal tomorrow. For webdesign that is. Should be exciting. If I do a good job with this guy, I can have a lot more to do.

We picked up my kid sister in Phoenix sunday. On the way back, we stopped at the In and Out Burger. I don't know how many of you have experienced the In and Out Burger, but you must. I'll tell a little story...

It's probably safe to assume that many of you have had a Krispy Kreme Donut by now. They seem to be a pretty big fad. Well, when one opened when I lived in Milwaukee, they had to have police officers there to direct traffic, so we all know how big it is. I've have never had a Krispy Kreme Donut. So a few days ago, I stopped into one. There is one about 3 blocks away from my mom's place here in Tucson, and it's always packed. Always. So I stop in, and there is just this huge line. I am not a fan of glazed donuts whatsoever. I eat one, and it ruins my appetite for hours. But whatever, my mom, who hates donuts, swears by these things. So I stop in, and while I'm waiting, this employee comes over and gives me a "hot fresh donut" while I'm waiting in line. Let me tell you, Krispy Kreme has achieved Donut perfection. There is absolutely no way that you could make a donut better. No way in hell could you. I practically fell on the floor eating it. If you haven't tried one, you must. It was one of the greatest moments I've ever had eating something. If I could only relive that moment over, biting into a Krispy Kreme for the first time. Anyway, the In and Out Burger. The In and Out Burger joint is always just as, if not more busy than a Krispy Kreme Donut place. They have 5 items on their menu, minus drinks. They have four types of hamburgers/cheeseburgers, and fries. That's it. Probably the most basic menu you'd ever see. Well, we stop there, and it was totally packed. The line was goign way out the door, and we ordered within five minutes. These people were efficent. When I bit into that burger, I knew exactly what a fast food hamburger should taste like. Much like Krispy Kreme, they've achieved fast food burger perfection. Yes, it's just that damned good. If you've been one of the lucky few that have tasted the Doug Malcore Garlic Burger, then you know what a burger should taste like. Anyway, that was all pretty cool to me. It's been fun.

That's pretty much it. I haven't decided if I'm going to make more pages tonight, or if I'm going to update some old ones. I think I'm goign to update. I'm not really in the mood to make up some more layouts, just to do some good typing. Sometimes making up a layout is more fun for me, and other times just writing is a lot more fun. Anyhow, happy tuesdays to you. It's gorgeous here in Tucson.

January 7th, 2002

Well, I went to talk some websites today. I love talking websites. This guy, who has the site www.acefudinggroup.com wants me to do a site for him. You see, it's these two brothers. One owns the company, and is just unbelievably rich. I mean, this guy is just loaded. He does this mortgage banking thing, and in order to walk into his house, I had to walk through his garage, which housed a brand new Porsche. Unbelievably cool car. Just damned gorgeous. And his house is just amazing. My mom said that it's a "testamet to wasting money". She was right on. You wouldn't believe it. Never in a million years. Anyhow, this guy has a brother, and his brother knows my mom. Well, apparently, he wants me to work for him. Start out telemarketing, learn the business, and so on and so forth. Eventually moving on to bigger and better things and possibly making as much money as this guy does. Well, so his brother wants to create a site for himself. Farmers Mortgage Group. So that's what I'm going to do. Just a little basic thing. He in essence wants my 500 dollar package, but I don't think I have the guts to make him pay that. He came to me, he's my ma's pal, and all that. I know I should be cutthroat, but I'll probably end up only charging half of that. So I'm doing that. Starting tomorrow, then his brother, the ultra rich guy, wants me to fix his. Then maybe onto bigger and better things.

So I figured I'd try telemarketing, right? I wasn't too sure about it all. You know, the bad experiences I've had at Choice One and all. But I kept an open mind about it. In the back of my mind I was expecting to hate it. Man did I have good times doing that though. I did pretty good too. 3 leads, good ones too. I'm sure they are expecting to call these people back and find just shit, but there is no reason that he shouldn't be able to close these guys. So I was going to tell him tonight that I wasn't going to do it, but it's a good oppurtunity in a good industry. I start really small, but big time oppurtunities. It's hard to think like that though. And seeing the houses that these two have, it's pretty inspiring. So I really kind of liked it surprisingly. Actually, I've liked almost every job I've been to after the first day. But this one seems like it could go somewhere. I'm glad I actually got to get on the phone right away. I thought they were going to fiddle faddle with me for a while, but they just threw me into the mix. I appreciate that. It was pretty damned fun though. I could have done a lot better. I know. I was pissed that I only ended with three leads, becaues I know for certian that if I said one or two things differently, I could have had 5 more. I'll get better though, and I've learned enough to know what has to be done. What makes it even easier is knowing that all I have to do is gain interest. I don't have to go out and do damned proposals. You know, at Choice One, you really have to do a lot when you think about it. Looking back at Choice One, what I should have done was spend 3 days or so on the phone, the whole day. Telemarketing, gaining interest, then call back and set up an appointment, then go in and do a proposal and close them. All I have to do now is gain interest? How easy is that. I don't have to worry about anything else. I think I could be really good at this telemarketing thing though. I'm one of those people that get's all wrapped up in something until I think I've maxed out. You know, once you get so good at something, there really isn't a need to continue doing it. That's how I look at it. I need to get to a certian level, then get promoted right away, or I lose it. See, at Choice One, you aren't going anywhere. You spend 2-3 months getting really good at it, then that's it. You can't really learn anymore. That kills me. It's just this dead feeling that I have in a job. You know, I think if they told me at Choice One that after I get to a certian level, I will get promoted to a totally different position that utilizes what I've learned. I would have done much better. See, my goal in life isn't to make a lot of money. I mean, it's not my main goal. My goal is challenges and rewards. I know now that if I start anywhere, with the proper motivational tools, I can bring myself right to the top of the ladder. No problem. I'm an excellent problem solver, I'm quite intelligent, and I work well under pressure. But if all you get for being good at something is more money, fuck it. Right? You see, every time I start something new, I learn something new about myself. That's why I always need some new sort of challenge. I'll never survive in this world if I'm all I'm trying to do is make money. See?

So my brother is coming to Tucson tomorrow. I was put in charge of finding him a car to rent. Well, going out with my mom and her boyfriend the first few days that I was here, I met a bunch of people. One of these people invited me to a party that she was having with a bunch of her friends from work. So all of sudden, for some reason, my mom and her boyfriend are convinced that this girl wants me. I'd like to think differently, but they know her better than me. So today my mom calls me with all these excuses of why I should call this girl to rent a car from her. You see, she works at Enterprise-Rent-A-Car. So they think I can get this great deal, just working my magic with this girl. So I have to call this person I've only spoken with when we were under the influence, adn I have to use my good looks and charm to get this lady to pull some strings for me. I call her right, but she isn't around. So she calls back, and tells me that she can get a really good deal for me. I have to talk to her tomorrow now, feeling all wierd about the whole thing. Hmmm...!

That's it for tonight. If you've noticed, I'm done with every page now, so you should no longer be getting any 404 error messages. Although I'm not done with the text on some pages, it's getting there. Pretty exciting eh? I have two more girls to write about, then my thoughts page. Then it's the biggest pages on my site. The more women page and the school history page. Then it should be done. Then of course, I'll try and update everything, adding more stuff to each page, because that goes fast. And as time goes by I'll probably come up with new pages to write up. If you have any ideas of stuff you want to see on this page, let me know....doug@dougmalcore.com

January 12th, 2002

What a great weekend. First things... I have my two new clients now. Ace Funding Group and Farmers Mortgage Group. For Ace, I'll be fixing up their website, and for Farmers, I'll be designing a whole new thing. How exciting. Should be very cool, and oppurtunities to make some pretty good money.

I went "rock climbing" for the first time. They have this huge indoor place here in Tucson where you get to go and climb the walls. It's hard to explain, but if you've ever seen any of those indoor climbing places, you'd know what I was talking about. It was cool because they spent about a half hour training us. Showing how to tie the knots, and everything. So really, I could almost go and climb some rocks in the middle on no where now. So that was pretty cool. So we had this harness on, and these special shoes. So fun. The thing is that it looks so damned easy. You see it on TV, and everyone seems to have no problems doing it. Well, they had so many different places to climb at this place, that there was different degrees of difficulty. We tried all of them however. At first, when we hold each other up, you have to have one on the ground while one is climbing, we kept a lot of pressure on the ropes, but then I decided it was a lot easier to climb if you have a lot of slack. Then you have to do a lot more work rather than just rely on the rope as much. It was better if you fall too. For instance, you are staning on basically nothing sometimes. Seriously, you are on this wall, and just holding on to these little rock things they have their, feeling like you are just about to fall. Then to get higher, you have to try and do this amazingly difficult move. So you go for it. Well, when there wasn't slack, you just kind of fall away from the wall, but when you left enough slack, you actually fell a little bit. It was a pretty cool feeling, falling off like that. Knowing in the back of your mind that you are safe. It was really fun, and I'm going to try and go a lot now. It's such good excercise for your body too.

Also, went to a Casino down here. I go and lost 5 bucks in the slots right away, but then I go to another slot, and start losing some money, then all of a sudden, POW!. I won 180 bucks right there. That was cool. They didn't have any blackjack tables or anything, so that sort of sucked. But it was still cool. I ended up leaving with 70 bucks because I lost some, and gave some of my money away so that we were playing with the casino's money and not our own.

I did so much this weekend. So much more, but it's time to go to bed now. I'll write more later.

January 14th, 2002

You have to admit that I'm doing a great job of writing in my diary, no? This is a pretty good job of keeping it up to date. I've always kept a diary, and this is about the most I've written in one since my freshman year of college. It's good times.

So what do you think of my evaluation results? When I was reading that, I thought to myself, I should put this on my website. My mom thought it was too personal, but I really don't mind putting stuff like that up here. It's quite fun. I've read it a few times before when I was younger, but I really tried to understand it a little better and make sense of it. Esp when I was typing it in. I was just going to scan it, but unfortunately my scanner is down for the moment.

Either way, it's made me think about a lot of things. You have to understand that when I was talking to the shrink, I was really trying to make it seem like I wanted to live with my mom. It doesn't really sound like that too much when you read it however. Going in, I wanted to make it seem like my mom was the greatest, and my dad was terrible. It doesn't seem like I did that a whole lot however. I don't know what happened. I remember it pretty well considering that was 9 years ago. Remember, the shrink (I don't use the word to be disrespectful, it's just faster to type) said I have a good memory for the recent and remote events. I do too, I have an outstanding memory. I'm quite proud of it. It was strange to see that he thought I simplified things when they were being explained to me, so that I understand them better. That's still true today. It's a great and terrible thing to have. I listen to what I need to know, think of how it applies however I want to use it, then I'll go from there, rather than do everything someone tells me to do. It's probably why I pick up things so easily. It would be terrible if I never asked questions, but I'm very good at asking questions.

I could have said a lot more bad stuff about my father. I remember wanting to. I remember wanting to tell of how he used to kick my ass all the time when I was younger, for the most idiotic reasons. I remember talking to him once in the kitchen, and he was being his usual stubborn and ignorant self. Going off on some rant, he was, so I made this "phmfff" sound to let him know how stupid he was. Then he came over and kicked me in the ear. I goddamn hate being touched in the ear. It's probably the most sensitive spot on me. I just can't stand it. The littlest damage to my ear will make me as mad as I've ever been. Jenna headbutted me in the ear tonight, and I got so pissed at her.

Speaking of which, my brother and I wrote a little song tonight. Just something I've been working on for a few years now. It's about the lamest thing ever, and it's such a joke. "Feed them cows" is the name, and it's a complete hoax. Funny though.

That's it, have a good Tuesday!

January 19th, 2002

2 pages on this site to go... I'm getting there. Those should be pretty easy though, a night each or so. Whatever I feel like. I've done a new layout on my brothers page, www.malcoreroofs.com. I think it looks much better now. I really had to change that because I didn't design it initially for having a lot of text, so when I had to add a bunch of shit, it started to look pretty crappy. It's quite good now however. That, and I've been working with Farmer's mortgage group's site, but I haven't uploaded anything yet, so be patient.

When I get done with all of that, I'll have to do a major overhaul on my mom's page. See, she is dating this new guy, "Doug", which you may or may not already konw. Doug is extrememly cool guy. He's like 53 but you'd seriously think he is like 30. Fun as hell to hang out with. I've gone out with him a few times. He's just about the easiest guy to know, and seems to know everyone no matter where we go. Everybody loves this guy too. He's just really good at pleasing people. And apparently, he's a big fan of my mom.

Well, last night I went out with the two of them to a Karoke bar. My mom is a really good singer, even though I have to question some of the songs that she sings. Anyway, she got absolutely wasted last night. Man was that funny. Just hammered she was. And this lady, who Doug and I didn't know, or my mom, was taking a large liking to my mom. She asked if she could take my chair so she could get a better view of "that lady singing, she's wonderful". Well, that lady asked my mom to sing a duet, bought her a drink, so my mom obliged. While Doug and I found out that the lady and her husband are always looking for partners to experienence romatically. If that makes sense to you. So they are out there singing, getting towards the end of the song, it's all dramatic and such. And the lady is just getting into it. You should have seen the look in her eye. Just staring at my mom, mentally undressing her, or something like that. Well, they are holding out the last note, and the lady grabs my mom, with her leg up near my mom's waist. I thought the lady was going to rip my mom's clothes off right there. Man, Doug and I were rolling on the ground. Of course, nothing materialized.

Today, Doug and my ma were here watching the game, and I was talking about putting the story up on my website. Doug asked for my URL, and my ma said that he can't have it. My mom is not a big fan of this site whatsoever, and it's been the source of a few arguments in the past. Anyhow, my mom is freaking out, so I was being coy and gave Doug hints that pretty much gave away the address. My mom said to him, "if you look at that, we're through". Ha, she's so concerned about it. So he told my mom that he wasn't going to read it, but I'm sure they are both reading this very line right now to see what sorts of interesting information I have here. Ahhh... it's all just too funny.

Anyhow, I'm having a great weekend. I'm a little disappointed that the Buc's won today, but I guess I'll live with it. I wish I didn't get so tired typing all the time, and i could just type the amazing amount of interesting stories that I could write. I'm always thinking any typing that I'll write about it later, but I never do. I even procrastinate with this website. It's depressing really.

Hope all is well!

January 25th, 2002

Man, am I an idiot. Why didn't you tell me, I've had December written on all these dates as opposed to January. Do I feel like a moron now. See, I do a lot of cutting and pasted when I write in these entries. It's not as simple as just writting words. Every line break has to have a HTML tag, every link, and so on and so forth. For example,

That was two HTML tags just to make that space there. See, you are learning stuff now. I expect you to have your very own diary page up within the week. Send me a link to it as well. Every time I write a new entry there is like 10 tags I have to write, so usually I just cut and paste the old ones into the news ones, simply changing just the day letters, otherwise it would take me much longer to write every entry. I'm damned fast at writing HTML now, I would have never thought I would be that fast, and because I do so much writing on this diary, and other pages in the site, I end up wanted to put HTML tags right into my normal typing... like the 10 emails or so that I have to send each day. It's quite depressing.

I know, I know, I was doing such a good job at writing in this page all the time. I was getting a pretty consistent amount of people coming to my site again, because of how much I updated. I do a good job updating any way. At least in this webmaster's humble opinion. Anyway, I've been keeping busy with a couple of things.

I redid my brothers site. www.malcoreroofs.com, you should check it out. I'm quite proud of it, and he thinks I've done a really good job on it. So I'm glad with that. I always get sick of the same layout after a while anyhow, and it's just so fun to make up new graphics and layouts. Granted, I don't think this site could get much better. It's quite good, no? My kid sister thinks it is pretty cool, so that's about all I need. It still is getting sort of sickening to me. I also re-did www.thedustsettles.com. That's pretty different now. It's ten times better in my opinion. Doesn't look so beginnerish. As I write more and more and make up different pages on this site, I learn all sorts of new things. So something I was really proud of a couple months ago looks like shit to me. I'm sure I'll be thinking the same thing about the dust settles site pretty soon. I'm sure, if Jamie had her way, I'd change the company name as well. I think it's quite good. Different from the norm. But Jamie and I really don't speak anymore... regardless, that's a completely other story that is burning a hole in me.

So, on the dust settles site, you may notice the graphic at the top is animated? Yeah, trying to make sure potential clients can see that I know what I'm doing. Professional appearance, crisp graphics, and client interaction was what I was going for. It's going ok. I'd like to make up something for this site as well. Just because it's that fun to do. You may remember a card I made a long time ago for my old friend Jamie's birthday. If not, I still have it on the server for your viewing pleasure. Jamie's Card. I still have a lot of work to do on my other two sites I'm still working on, but those don't have to be done till the end of the week. I know, I'm such a procrastinator.

Anyhow, I'm sure those are just boring topics to you all. I once told myself that I would write this page like no one was reading it. Which I've held up to for some months, but that has gone wayward, and now it's like I'm talking directly to you. So many people email me and tell me this is a great way for them to know what's going on in my life, that's how I view it now. It's sad really.

So tomorrow is the Super Bowl. Yeah, big deal right. Well, we are going to be at my mom's place, she has this big thing all planed out. I asked her this week what she was going to cook for the Super Bowl, and she's like, "why", "who cares". Then I reminded her of the trememdous meals that she has made for my friends and myself over the years, made a few suggestions, and got her to host this year's party once again. I'm quite excited. Seriously, if you haven't had my mom's cooking, you haven't eaten. Hands down, the best cooking ever. I'm sure it's what my mom's boyfriend likes best about her, as most other people I know. She has this uncanny gift to take what looks like an empty cupboard, and create maybe one of the finest meals you've ever eaten. Serioulsy, if you haven't tasted my mom's cooking, and you came over for her to cook... we eat something which I would rate as maybe the 30th best thing she's ever cooked, it'd be your favorite. You should see the magic this lady works in a kitchen. I have about 1/50th of her skills, and I have a few fans of a couple of my dishes. So if you tasted stuff I cooked, remember that the best thing I've cooked, would be a diaster in my mom's eyes. We go out to eat with her, and she always complains about the food. That's because she is used to eating her own cooking. I have yet to find a restaurant that I would prefer to my mom making the same item. When Jenna was born, two of my friends and myself would come home during our 25 minutes lunch break at school. We lived about two blocks away, so it wasn't that big of a deal. Well, Alex (who always came with me) would go home and rave about it to his mother, always demeaning her cooking (which was what he was best at). She get jealous and always ask him to "get a recipe". That's my mom's finest story.

I'm reading and watching "The Lord of the Rings" all the time right now. I've just finished "The Hobbit" (in three days mind you, I'm a pretty good reader). That is the prelude to LOTR. I'm obsessed with that whole thing though. I'm getting some posters made up of the maps in the book to put in my apartment. I think that'll be cool. I just bought the huge DVD that they have. The four-disk one, and I'm watching all of that. I just think it's one of the most wonderful things I've ever experienced. So it's tough, because I like to read so much now. I'm reading two non-fiction books. One on computer networking, one on computer programming, and the the trilogy. It's just hard to keep up with how busy I'm keeping myself.
Other than that, there isn't much to write about that you don't already know, or what I don't really want you to know. I'm chewing on some things I want to tell you about, but I'll have to decide whether or not you should all hear.

Happy sundays!

January 29th, 2002

Good evening. Just got done hanging out with my kid sister. She's pretty cool you see. Even though she is 7 years old. She was much better when she was younger, but it still ok now. She's really needy though. She always has to hold my hand. She always hugs me when she first sees me. She lays on me when we go to see a movie. Oh yeah, you should see Treasure Planet. It's actually pretty decent. I'm enjoyed myself immensely.

Tomorrow morning I have to get up quite early, and to be honest with you, I'm not looking forward to it. I'm not a fan of getting up early whatsoever, just so you know. I don't know how some people can do it day in a day out. You know, I understand getting up in the morning to go to work, but then on the weekends, or your days off, still get up at 6am. My brother is like that, and I just have no idea how people do it. Don't get me wrong, I am not a big sleeper. I don't really like to sleep in, or sleep late. In fact, I hate it, but I don't like waking up early in the morning, becaues I just feel so shitty. Times in my life, I've had no problems waking up. You know, I would have woken up at 5am to bring one of my ladyfriends back home so she could work if it meant her staying over. I woke up at 630 no problem when I was a substitute teacher. And a few other times, but never on a regular basis do I like to wake up early and "go get 'em". I don't know how you can do it.

As far as personal stuff, there isn't much to tell. I'm getting quite frustrated with a few things, but it should all work out in time. Other than that, if you have any questions, let me know. Enjoy Thursday.