March 25th, 2002
I know, I haven't written in some time. Quite a bit of time actually. That's ok, I've had quite a bit on my mind.
In my free time recently, I've been trying to decide on things I want to do. Sort of make up a list of goals that I have that is.
Well, I've decided that I'm going to join the Air Force or Navy. I'm not sure yet. Tomorrow I'm going to go talk to the recruiter
to see what is a better option. I'm pretty positive this is what I want to do. Actually, I definitely want to. I've thought about
it in the past, but never really had the guts to leave everyone and everything I know behind. I've already done that though, living
in Tucson. My family is here too, but I'm used to being away from them.
So it's not something I'm really just jumping into. My roommate my freshman year of school was in the National Guard, and had
videos and tons of stories to talk about, so I have a pretty good idea of what basic training is all about. However, the air force
does it a little bit differently. I've pretty much memorized both of the navy and air force websites, trying to get all the information
that I can, and it's pretty much dominated my thoughts.
I haven't done this in the past because I was scared of being locked down, scared of leaving for so long, and scared of what Basic Training
would do to me. I don't fear any of those anymore. The only thing I am scared of is flying. It's definitely an uncertain path, but
people have done it before, so it's nothing to worry about.
I want to learn more. Get smarter, that is 100% of the reason that I want to join. I have no intention of being a "fighter" whatsoever. That's
not my style. My style is to be the brains behind everything. Watching war movies and stuff when I was younger, I was always attracted to
the guys in the background, running the computer, or analyzing some map, or coming to the commander with some crucial piece of information.
That's what caught my eye in those movies. That's what I want to do. More than anything. Watching the war thing on TV, which I am strongly
against, just makes me want to do it more. I'd hate to think anything I'm involved in could actually kill anybody. That's tough too.
So there is just a shitload of "careers" that I can choose to be a part of. The way I see it, it's basically like getting paid to go to college,
and getting to see all different parts of the world. The seeing the world part isn't huge, I realize I'll more than likely be stationed
here in the US or on some ship, but it's still pretty cool to think about.
When I started seriously checking it out, I had mostly fear. Fear of actually wanting to do it, fear of actually joining it, and just fear
of being part of something so big. The more I think about it, the more I think it's what I want to do. I desperately want to learn more
about technology. If you knew me, if you followed my basic daily routine, you'd see that about 80% of my day is spent reading about computer
stuff, or working on computer stuff. This computer probably hates me the amount of time I spend using it.
The way I figure it, it's 6 weeks (8 for the Navy) of hell. That's basic training, then it's all what I want to do. I can't believe how
fun it would be for me to learn more about computers, working with the best equipment money can buy. I have to join soon though, because with the
90 billion dollars this war is going to cost, they might be cutting Military salaries soon. Sounds fun.
I'd really really love your thoughts on this. I don't care if you know me or not, you don't have to tell me your name, nothing. I just
want to hear what people who visit my site or people who know me think about all of this. Especially people who know me. You'd be a
better judge of me doing this than I would. So please send your thoughts in the box below. I'll keep you updated to as to my final
decisions, after I talk to the recruiter and all. I'm not even sure I'll pass the physical. I have the knee thing, and the heart thing,
both of which are on my medical record. So I don't know. That would suck if I make this decision to do it, and I'm held back because
of those two things, which shouldn't really apply at all. I'm going to get in shape though. Tomorrow is my start. I'll try to run a
mile or so every day this week, then up the ante next week as to whatever I can perform physically. I still have a lot more to learn before
I decide to do this, but when I do, I'd like to start as soon as possible. If I have the opportunity to leave in two weeks, I'll take it,
but not sooner than that. Please send your thoughts. I'm on my knees here.
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March 27th, 2002
Ok, So I went and signed up for the Air Force. I really really would like to be in the Air Force, the more that
I think about it. I don't think it's going to happen though. I don't think I'm qualified to be in it. You
can't just simply sign up and be in the Air Force. There is a long list of qualifications that you must have
in order to join, and I doubt that I'll be able to meet them all. Maybe when I was just out of high school I
would have been able to, but now I'm not sure. However, I'm going in Monday to take a test, schedule a medical
examination, and a learn some more. I'll find out then what is going on. However, if I can't do the Air Force,
I'm going Army. I think the Army might be a better fit for me anyhow. In some ways it'll be worse, and it other
ways it's a lot better. So I'm going military for sure, and I'm going to do it as soon as possible. Just wanted
to give an update. More later perhaps.
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