20.May.2005
So I've been really lame lately. I've been thinking a lot about writing, and haven't really done it. My internet is down
because I didn't pay it while my unit was at the range and the field. It defintely feels like I've been gone for some
time now. I haven't called home in months, mainly because my phone has been inoperative, but also because the longer that
I go without calling home, the harder it is to call home. I don't know if that makes any sense.
So this feeling disgusts me lately. I know I'm going to leave germany with regret. I haven't done enough. I haven't been
to enough countries. When we get a little time off, all I want to do is sit in my room and drink, then when I've drank a lot,
I want to go out to some bar and drink a lot more. So I never have money, because I'm supporting this weekend alcoholism thing that
I have (I never drink during the week). You can bet that if it's a weekend night, I'm already drunk. I've never drank as much as I
do now that I'm in the army.
It's quite strange to think that I have almost two years in already. I joined when I was 23. Which, compared to most people that I know,
is quite old. Esp. when a lot of the people that I hang out with and name as acquaintences are so young.
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