Let me state that this page is completely my opinion. You can reserve the right to judge Jody however
you would like to. I am using this page just to inform you of what I have learned over the time that I have known her.
I have no intention to accurately report Jody's personality, it's only what I have figured out on my own.
Many of these things might not be entirely true to what Jody's actual personality is like, it's only what she has let me find out,
or more importantly, what she wants me to think about herself.
If you would like to update my information database;
anything you think you know that I don't, you may do so here.
doug@dougmalcore.com
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A brief history
Many, many moons ago, I got a job working at McDonald's in Green Bay Wisconsin. It was my first
W-2 job. On one of my first days, if not my first, I don't remember exactly, a young lady, (older than
myself of course, I was only 15), was very personable. We chatted about a number of bullshit chit chat
things, nothing being of that much importance. Little did I know, this lady would change my life.
For reference and anonymity's sake, we'll call this one Jody. I don't know what happened to her for a
long time, but after we first met, she quit or took a leave of absence or we just never had the same
shifts. Regardless, it was sometime before we chatted again. However, we started workign together
again, and one thing lead to anohter, we were getting pretty close. Let me state, before I get into
this much more, that this girl was 21, and yes, I was 15. I wasn't easisly impressed by older folk,
but I was impressed that older women could take a liking to myself. A good self confidence builder.
So we work together a lot, and she is confiding in me somewhat. She is having some sort of issues
with her boyfriend at the time. Apparently, he wanted her to move to Texas with him, and she wasn't
sure. I just told her it wasn't a good idea, in my best non-biased voice. So she stayed, and we
got closer. She then became a manager at McDonald's, which was absolutely wonderful, because now
I didn't have to worry about what I did at work as much, and could be much more immature. I never
really worried about impressing this girl. Remember, I was 15, she was 21, and my thoughts were that
whatever happened with her, happened. So we were doing all sorts of crazy things while we were supposed
to be working. Playing baseball with a broom and towel wrapped in plastic, and doing the whole
"lasso" thing. (if you haven't seen my lasso thing, you must, it's great times).
I was big time varsity football star at this point of my life. I was one of only 3 juniors on a starting
varsity team, and we were in the playoffs. So I asked a guy manager friend of myself to come to the game, and
he said he'd be there. So I picked up four tickets for him to come to our game. Thinking not much of it,
I was off to the game. I played pretty well, and the announcers always seemed to have a liking to me. Sometimes
I wouldn't even be near a play, and they'd say my name over the PA system. So everyone always came and
talked to me after the game. Well, after this playoff game, I was walking back to the locker room, talking to
whoever I must, but hanging out with my friends. It was a long walk, and we had to walk through the parking
lot. Well, Alex and I were walking when Jody came up to talk to me. I had no idea she was going to be there, but
she was just singing my praises. Alex was laughing his ass off because some older lady he never met was
talking to me. So that is when Jody and I started getting serious.
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A Few Stories
Our first date... I can't even remember. I can't believe I can't remember this. I
remember almost every detail with this girl because I've repeated almost every story more than once to
my friends. I think she was going to come over to Luxemburg, which was a half hour drive for her. Well,
I gave her directions, assuming she'd get lost. She didn't, which surprised me. (I later found out that
she drove there a few days earlier, looking up my address in the McDonald"s directory. I don't remember
what we did exactly, but it wasn't much. Ok now, we went and saw Stephen King's "thriller" i think was the
name of it. I still have the movie stub (I've kept nearly every one). Yeah, the movie sucked, but I was
a big Stephen King reader, so she thought I'd like it. After, we went to her aunt's place, which was where
she was staying. Just chilled out in her room for a while. That was pretty much it for the first date. Man,
I'm glad I remembered that. Almost totally forgot, skipping that intricate detail.
On our third date, this I remember like it was yesterday. We were sitting in the driveway of some
park, and she was telling me about some dream she had about me. Apparently, I died in a car accident,
(when I was younger, I thought for sure that I was going to die in a car accident before I was 19). All of
sudden, she started crying her ass off. I'm like, what the hell, it was just a dream. Anyhow, I'm consoling
her and all that, thinking to myself that I need to get away from this girl.
A few days later, this was right before thanksgiving, we were driving, and she mentions something about
her friend giving a blowjob, or something like that. I was young, inexperienced, and didn't know much about
that sort of thing. I didn't say. Later, I found that she was only testing the waters. As soon as that
experience was over, and even while that experience was happening, all I was thinking, was I can't wait to
tell my friends. I remember going over to Alex's place to inform him of the good news, and he just about
flipped out. We were pretty typical small town kids.
She came over to our place for Thanksgiving. That was cool. Even then, I was thinking, I need to get
out of this relationship pronto. She was way attached at this point. It was only the third or fourth
time we were together, and she said, "doug, i think i'm falling in love with you". Phmfff... was pretty
much my response. I told her that I didn't think she was, but that didn't stop her from mentioning it
every time I saw her. And it definitely didn't stop her from writing letters to me every day, even if I
didn't see her, I got letters from her. Pretty weird, but a great encyclopedia of our relationship. Nearly
every day that I had known her romatically, I got letters from here. Yes, I still have every one of them.
Jody was my first for everything. I never really had a serious relationship until I met this girl. Or
at least, any relationship that I even thought was serious, wasn't serious anymore when I met her. She wanted
to be around me 24 hours a day, and would talk about marriage, kids, all that crap. I was always very good
at just tuning her out whenever she went on about something like that. Of course, my friends thought she was
affecting me big time, and always called me "new doug". Well, this one time she pulls this crazy thing
about her being "late", you know, I really didn't understand the complexities of that comment, nor did I
really want to. But I was in disarray for about 2 weeks. My friends, always wanted to edge me on, keep me
on the edge of my seat, were no better. But I remember this phone call, "I've got good news" she said, and I'm
like, "yes", it's over. Which it was, obviously, or I wouldn't be writing this entry. Man was I happy, then
she started crying, because she was afraid "that it was her only opportunity to have a child with me". yeesh is
right. That's about the scariest comment that I've ever heard.
I'll think up some more stuff, maybe put in some letters. You won't believe the depth that this relationship went
into, and it's ruined me with every relationship since then. I've forced myself to be as easygoing as possible,
I try and keep everything on the lowest level possible, and I'm scared to death that I'll end up with another manic
depressive like this girl was. I wonder if she is alive, or have killed herself yet.
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The Good Stuff
If Jody never had to get all serious and way overemotional, I could have been with her
for a very long time
Jody could get along with everyone
Jody treated me better than anyone ever had ever before, or anyone since then
Jody and I never fought aside for me not "feeling enough" for her
We always had a good time together.
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Life as we know it...why things go as they do...
Jody and I ceased to exist as a couple in mid February 1997. A couple times before that,
but that was the final time. Once, we were apart for a week, during which she said she 'couldn't eat
anything'. Pyscho. I got a speeding ticket, and I knew she'd pay for it. So we were back together, then
apart again for another few days. Then she came over to bring back my "stuff", which was like this stuff
I gave her as presents. I'm like, I'm not taking that shit back. Which she knew, but just wanted an excuse
to come over. Those situations make it so hard for me to find the right words to break up with a girl now, and
i'm so afraid of it now, because of how poorly she handled it all. I put so much thought into breaking up wiht a girl,
what I'm going to say to make sure she doesn't call, or come over anymore, it's disgusting really. She is probably
also the reason why when I break up with a girl, I don't want to have anything to do with them anymore.
Anyway, when she brought that stuff over, she was all close to me, and me being young, with the hormones, I took
advantage. Terrible thing to do. I'm making my moves, and she's like, "do you love me", of course, wnating
to go farther, I said that I did. After our romatic experience was over, I told her that we should break up. Whew,
was that a mistake. Big time. I'll never forget that look on her face, and I'll never tell a girl that
I love her again. So she left, and that was it. She called about a week later, asking for her money back. I
told her, and I quote, "If you want your money back, I'll see you in court for statutory rape charges". Ouch,
probably the meanest thing I've ever done, but I sure did get a good laugh from my friends for that one. Which
was about the only reason I talked to her after of month of our dating. Stories to tell my friends
Funniest story really. When I was a freshman in college, I looked up her address on the internet, and
sent her a card online. I paid for it, as I didn't know her email address or anything. When we were dating, it
was well before the whole internet thing. So it was probably a shock for her to recieved a card from me
after I got her mailing address of the internet. Anyhow, I came home during break for a week in January. None
of my friends were home, since it was only a break associated with my university. On my way back, I decided to
stop at the McDonald's that I used to work at. Well, going through the drivethru, it was her working
there. Funniest thing, the coincidence, even though I had a pretty good hunch she was back working there. So
we chatted about as long as the drivethru experience would let us, and after a few hours of my being home, she
called. That was pretty interesting, getting a call from her. She had a boyfriend now, and all that. Actually, a guy
I got along with really well. (we both worked at McDonald's). He was a year younger than I was. I don't know what
her thing with younger guys was, but it sure was funny. So, we hung out a bit during that break. It was pretty
weird and all, but I took it in stride. She ended up driving me back to school. Then she stayed that night.
She told me she was with her current boyfriend for over a year, but they hadn't been intimate at all. So the last
person that she experienced was Doug. Of course, when we were back in Oshkosh, she couldn't keep her hands off
me, and ended up cheating on her boyfriend, and biting me in the chest at the same time. Man was I pissed. So the
next morning, she left. Calling me up every other night or so to talk about her moving to Oshkosh and us
getting an apartment together, and all that crap. All of which I was really non-chalant about. My freshman year
was all about challenges, and numbers. Soon, I told her to go back to her boyfriend, and that's been it for
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